Today I was at work when Mike called.
I could hear it in his voice.
Something was wrong.
“Kirsten. The funeral home just called and Diem’s headstone was placed today”
I responded with an Okay.
And told him I would meet him there in a bit.
I didn’t want the older kids to go because I wasn’t really sure how I would react.
The 10 minute drive to the cemetery was the longest drive.
I literally felt butterflies in my stomach.
I pulled up
And saw his Jeep.
It made me smile
I parked and got out.
He greeted me.
We talked as we walked
I have no idea about what
I hadn’t been this nervous in a long time.
I saw it as we rounded the corner
It was so small
Headstones shouldn’t be that small
I could hear Michael crying
We walked up and there it was
our Baby’s headstone
it was PERFECT
You try to take in the moment
the sight… sounds
the breeze felt amazing
Someone behind the cemetery had music blasting
Country music
They were singing
It was probably the worst I had ever heard before
But definitley made us chuckle.
I sat down on the ground
Michael squatted
I was so brave
I didn’t cry
I wanted to be brave…..
Then
somewhere along being brave
and dreaming
about our baby girl in Heaven
Probably the worst song choice came on
…..
Don’t Take the Girl by Tim McGraw
Y’all
I
LOST
IT
If I ever imagined
a scene of our time on
April 12, 2017
it would be from that music video
The part.
Same old boy
Same sweet girl
Five years down the road
There’s gonna be a little one and she
Says it’s time to go
Doctor says the baby’s fine
But you’ll have to leave
‘Cause his momma’s fading fast and
Johnny hit his knees and there he prayed
“Take the very breath you gave me
Take the heart from my chest
I’ll gladly take her place if you’ll let me
Make this my last request
Take me out of this world
God, please don’t take the girl
In our case
God did take the girl
and that is okay
because I know with all of my being
One day
I will get to meet her
I wanted to post a picture of her headstone
because
well I think it’s adorable.
Tomorrow the Vase will be added
and we will take chalk up to the cemetery so the kids can leave messages for her.
